sleeps edge

I tried to sleep, but could barely reach sleeps edge.

Still half awake I did dream, and in my dream,
I was with you, laying by your side,
and holding you, in our last good bye,

and I did tremble so,
as tears did fall from my very soul,

and you said,
what’s the matter,
and I said,

I am so very sorry for not letting it be known to you,
all the things you were to me, until it was too late,
and for making such a big mess of all of this,
and chasing your love away.

And I only wish,
I would have held you more often,
and held you more closely,
and held you more tightly,
and kissed you longer,
and loved you stronger,
and made you to without a doubt see, 
just what your love did mean to me.

But I never dreamed it was just a dream,
that would end in this way,
like this one from which I did just wake,

but this price, I know I do owe, and must pay.