The Innocent

Blessed by heaven above
with two angels.
One I called wife,
the other I called daughter.
What a lucky man I was.
All my dreams realized in one day.

I loved children so,
and now I had one to call my own.
One of the sweetest
most innocent little darlings
any parent could ever hope for.
She was all mine.
I loved her so.

She and her mother
brought so much joy into my life.
My love for them was matched
only by the love they felt for me.

We had a special something
that most only dream of.
We were a family
filled with love
for each other.

This sweet little lady,
trusting, loving,
and so innocent,
her care and
her heart in my hands.

Her step-father,
a role I took on
with all the best of intentions.
Wanting to give her a second chance
to have a normal family.

There was just one problem.
I had no idea of how
to be a father
to this lovely little angel.
All I knew was that
I loved her and her mother so much.
I wanted so to be
a good father and husband.

A special education is required
to care for the sick.
If you want to drive a car
you must first pass a test.
Almost everything we buy
comes with instruction.

Everything but a marriage license.
You must learn how to make
a marriage work one day at a time.

You must learn how to become a father
one day at a time as well.

Every mistake you make
effects the ones you love most.

Being human mistakes were made by all.
All our mistakes came between us
a little at a time
until they formed walls.
Not only did these walls
get in the way
of the love we had
for each other,
but it also cost us
the trust and respect
that we had for each other.

How could we let this happen?
Didn't we know what was at stake?

I can only speak for myself.
I didn't really understand
what my family meant to me
till it was gone.
It's so sad to think
it took this to
finally open my eyes,
seeing my family
walking out of my life.

Where my heart was once
filled with love,
it is now filled with sorrow.

I try to remember
the innocent years
before the walls.

These memories bring me much joy
in the reflection of them,
and much sorrow at
the loss of what once was.

My love still remains
though it is out of view,
hidden forever by these walls.