A River of Tears

Copyright ©1996 by Richard J. Sereday Jr.
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So strong my love for her.
Stronger day by day.

So long my love for her.
Over the years.
Stronger day by day.

A love so real,
so very real.

So strong
my passion for her,
my desire for her.
So real.

For so long
my love for her
goes unanswered.

The hardest thing
I ever had to face.

Losing her.

So much pain.
So much sorrow.

To think that
none of it was
real for her.

To think that
it all means
nothing to her.
Nothing at all.

So much sorrow.
So much hurting.

Tears erupting
from the very bottom
of my soul.

Tears in the morning.
Tears in the night.

Waking in the middle of the night
to tears.

Tears driving down
the highways.

So many tears,
an endless supply.

My heart drowning
in a sea of tears,
tears and pain.

So much pain.
So many reminders
of what once was.

So easily the tears flow
as the memories are relived
in the minds eye.

So many little things
triggering the memories,
triggering the pain,
triggering this
endless flow of tears.

This "Trail of Tears",
leading me to my heart,
cleansing my soul.

Can these tears
ever wash away
this terrible pain?

I say "No",
they only serve
to dilute it for a short time,
till something triggers
my pain again,
reminding me of
what once was,

now lost forever.