Dear God

Dear God, 

I am so sorry, please just forgive me,
I’m just trying to fight off this pain.

And I thank you for bringing her into my life.
I just don’t understand why you had to take her away,

for I truly did love her, and I know I was blessed,
and don’t know why it had to end.

Wasn't I good to her? 
Didn't I love her enough,
more and more every day?
Couldn't she see it in my heart,
and in my actions?

I know you can see in my heart,
but now I realize that she could not,
though I thought she surely knew.

She was so many things to me, now so terribly missed ,
please help me to see why it had to be this way,
so I can let go and finally move on.

I know I was so good to her.
I know I love her more that anything or anybody,
but now I know she could not see,
for I was such a fool, and did toy with her heart.

so please God, just help me to understand,
how this could be a part of your plan,

that you would send an angel from heaven above,
with all I would ever need,
and let me take hold of her hand,
and walk with her in all the beauty of your creation,
only to take her away, and fill my heart with such pain.

I know this blame lies all on me,
but this burden, I can't bare,
for it is to great.

Please help me to read between these tears.

Your child,
Rick