a part of me

God, why would you put in me, a part of me,
that would try to protect me from pain,
that could wind up costing me this price too great,
and causing me the greatest of pains,
that ever has been known by this simple man?

What lesson was it, that was so important you taught,
that cost me all my dreams, and my only world?

I'm sorry, for I should not blame you,
for it was you that brought her to me,
then our future was in my hands,

but why would you give me all things needed,
and my grandest dreams come true,
and the most valued gift I'd ever known,
only to take her away, when I needed her most?

Oh, there I go again, for it was not your fault,
but only your gift to me, that I failed to care for,
with my foolish fears, and lack of courage.

So I stand in this cage,
I have no key to open,
and the tears flow ,
ferociously, relentlessly,
till they rise above my head,
and I fight not for my life,
for it has reached its end,

for she was my life and,
her back, this fight,
I could never win,

without your help.