Which one is better?
this one
or
this one,
this one
or
this one,
I can't tell,
when the pain comes,
or when it goes.
Somewhere between my hurting,
when I think it may be time to go,
then I really start to hurt
so very deep inside.
Then at the point where I think
I need to go, but don't,
I start to feel better,
not good, but better.
So do I feel better because
I have accepted that
I need to go,
or because I haven't gone.
The pain I live hurts me so,
and eats away at my heart,
but the thought of losing her,
hurts me just as much,
if not more?
This monster demands attention,
through my thoughts,
and control the actions
designed to protect,
that I do not want to do.
